# 238 - Don't Like Funeral Decisions

​A Beautiful Service

Don and I went round and round about whether to attend the service of a very special neighbor. In the past 8 months we have been cautious and taken few risks. Weddings and funerals are high on the risk list. We had a good excuse not to attend, but I'm so incredibly grateful we didn't stay home.

It felt odd to dress up just a bit, for the first time in 8 months. It felt strange to sing Amazing Grace, through a cloth mask. It felt wrenching, to see the images of our dear, young neighbor smiling in the slideshow. My throat ached to imagine the pain of his parents... our good friends. But I also felt lifted and so grateful to be surrounded by others... with our chairs spaced far apart.  

We've lost a number of special people in the last months. My dear friend's mom, my cousin, my aunt's husband. Different kinds of grief and worry and it all feels extra heavy, because of the pandemic. This was the only service we've attended. I thought our attendance was for them... to show our support. But we ended up benefitting. Even though we sat far apart from each other, there was a warmth of being with others who all care. The music, the words spoken, the quiet. It was all needed today. 
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