What's Not to Like?
I can't find a title, because I'm feeling nothing negative!!
But there is one negative thing! I got the results of my biopsy today and all is NEGATIVE! Which is a good word with a biopsy!! I'm not going down that cancer road again!
I'm getting away from this computer and running downstairs to have a glass of wine with Don. I need to celebrate AND thank him! He has been patient and supportive with me, during this week of total grumpiness! Love this guy!
I had my biopsy Friday. It was strange to be back with the same radiologist from two years ago... getting another stupid biopsy.
On May 24, 2016, I remember having a stress headache and asking Dr. G's assistant to turn off the radio. I remember Dr. G being chatty and upbeat and reassuring, before he did the biopsy. But nothing could ease my worry. I remember feeling stunned at the bad news, when he called, 4 days later. I remember pacing and agonizing over telling the kids and how relieved I was, once we spoke on the phone. Calling the kids had been the hardest part of the whole cancer thing.
So I'm once again waiting for results. My husband of course knows, but there's no reason to share with anyone else. I want to be a hermit and stay busy at home, but there are 3 days ahead with a graduation party, a dinner with friends, my book club and volunteer work.
I go about my business and try not to dwell, but every time I manage to forget, I'm reminded. There are way too many cancer commercials on TV! My mail just delivered a complimentary CARE magazine and I don't want to look at a cancer magazine. My computer popped up with a sassy little ad announcing, "Cancer won't take a vacation this summer..."
I want to yell, "Leave me alone!"
I dread my social engagements, but I do a good job and stay pretty chipper. It doesn't feel fake. I know it does me good. But when I'm at home, it's clear that I have depleted my "good mood minutes". I'm grumpy and Poor Old Don has to put up with me. We try to talk summer plans, but I'm unenthused. Why plan, when I might be "doing cancer" this summer? When I head out to meet my book club, I'll have to have my phone handy and what if I get The Call???
I hate waiting, but it's still easier than 2 years ago. If my news is bad, I'll be mad. But I won't be as scared.
I started this complaining list/blog, in May 2016. I posted 200 gripes about my breast CANCER and then I was done.
On March 13, 2020, I started venting all over again, when another disease (starting with a C) interfered with my life. This time it was the invasion of COVID and it affected every person. I ranted for a year, until I got my COVID vaccine in March 2021.
CORONARY Artery Disease was the reason I restarted this blog on September 26, 2021. This time it was my hubby Don, who was dealing with a worry that started with the letter "C".
Coronavirus and Cancer, Coronary Artery Disease! All are evil, but none can totally get me down... if I vent! I usually end up feeling a little more positive at the end of each post!
Navigating This Mess!
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