My Not So Happy Blog
How dare I say "I don't like pessimism", when this is my 58th complaint about Coronavirus... after 200 complaints about Cancer!
But this is a venting blog. I'm allowed. I vent daily, so that I can be the optimist that I usually am.
Does that make sense?
Right now, I'm more delighted about the smell of my neighbor's Magnolia blossoms, than I am bothered by my itchy bug bites.
But earlier this morning, I wasn't so positive. I've been easily annoyed lately. Blame it on the Pandemic! But this pandemic is really dividing people now. That's actually more scary and sad, than annoying.
Today, I headed off on my run in a negative mood. I started at 7:30 am, which is late for me. This is how quiet my route usually looks. I go before the sun is up, to avoid people.
Today, I felt stressed to find out just how many people run and walk and ride bikes, a little later in the morning.
Navigating around people, just made me feel uncomfortable about everything.
I was bothered by the strong smell of bat guano, when I crossed 2 bridges.
I was bugged by the sound of a man playing tennis. (courts are open now) His throaty grunts were echoing in the morning air. And the air itself was so cool and breezy, it made my eyes water, which meant I kept touching my face. Then I saw 2 different people I knew, which led to two awkward greetings. I just wanted to see no one. I was a grumpy jogger today.
The Ribbon is Back!
Then I saw something that totally made my day! I've been running by the Hope Tree for over a month now...
In early April, I added to the tree! I wrote some positive words on a ribbon and tied it on the highest branch. (which was not an easy task) A few days later, I noticed my ribbon was gone. I cringed to think it had blown away and had become trash.
Today, I saw my ribbon, tied on a low branch! Someone rescued it, risked contamination and tied it back on the tree! That Hope Tree changed my mood today!
I am hopeful!
I started this complaining list/blog, in May 2016. I posted 200 gripes about my breast cancer and then I was done.
On March 13, 2020, I started venting all over again, when another disease (starting with a C) interfered with my life. Only this time, it was affecting more than me. I ranted for a year, until I got my vaccine in March 2021.
Coronary Artery Disease was the reason I restarted this blog on September 26, 2021. This time it was Don who was dealing with a worry that started with the letter "C".
Coronavirus and Cancer, Coronary Artery Disease! All are evil, but none can totally get me down... if I vent! I usually end up feeling a little more positive at the end of each post!