44- Don't Like Waiting on Chemo!

Well, I'm finally feeling pretty normal, 5 weeks post surgery!  I'm able to swim laps and it feels good! It took so much longer than expected and I suddenly want to plant flowers and clean closets.  I'm home after all.

But I'm still waiting to hear what day I start chemo.  I've called the oncologist's office repeatedly to hound them.  "You haven't gotten the okay from my insurance, yet?" I've slipped through the cracks before.  I feel like my file gets buried because I'm sort of low priority, compared to many. But I'm eager to know the plan and get moving.  I study the calendar and see my treatments edging closer to the holidays. I thought I would be done by then.  "I just want to do this chemo!" I half laughed to the nurse on the phone.  

Then I realized this is my good window. I'm feeling pretty healed.  My brain is alert. (what is chemo brain anyway?) I have energy and hair.  I may not know which day I start up with this drama,  but I need to enjoy this healthy, post surgery time and stop fretting over WHEN I start. I need to get out now and make use!