38 - Don't Like How I'm Reading

I love to read, but my attention span is a mess. I read pages before noticing I haven't comprehended one word.  In the first "week of worry" the fabulous friends in my Book Club gave me a goody basket which included magazines.  Even my bookie friends knew I was better off flipping through colorful pages than absorbing real words.

And then some helpful books were offered, that I knew I should read...about diet and health and important things that could actually help me heal.  But I wanted to watch Turner Classic Movies and read cozy, effortless books. 

But as time passed, I was less scared by the book with the title "How Not to Die" and I didn't roll my eyes as "Peace, Love & Healing".  I still had my Kindle books at the ready, but I was ready to open up to the subjects I had wanted to ignore.

And then today, I got my treatment plan. It's been 50 days since I was diagnosed with cancer. It's been 4 weeks since I had my lumpectomy and today I finally learned that yes I will be doing chemotherapy for 12 weeks...  and yes it is the kind that will make my hair fall out ... and I don't want to start reading about cancer right now. I don't want to Google the internet to find out tips about handling all of this.  I really just want to color in my coloring book and chew my Chiclets gum.  Thanks, Diane!