Smiling... But Not Pleased
It's been 2 months since my last chemo and I have two weeks more of radiation It's okay that it will take forever to get my hair back. I'll put up with the wig and scarves and caps. Plus, I'm taking Biotin for hair growth and even doing my crazy Mayonnaise head treatment.
What's not okay, is that just as I begin to feel better, I start to look worse! Over the Thanksgiving holiday I noticed my eye lashes and eyebrows, as I was getting dressed to go out. The lashes had thinned during chemo, but suddenly I could see chunks missing. I felt ridiculous trying to put mascara on individual lashes!
I've tried to stay away from the internet, but on Sunday when things were quiet, I googled up a storm and made myself miserable. Evidently lots of chemo patients lose lashes and brows way after chemo ends. Many complain that it all finally grows back, only to fall out all over again. What? I hadn't prepared myself for this. I thought it was all about growth now... growing hair and growing stronger.
This lack of hair stuff stinks. I know I'm supposed to be grateful for how little I've suffered throughout all this and I am. But this is one of my bad days and I'm just going to pout and shout... and then I'm going to decorate.
Cancer - Covid
I started this complaining list/blog, in May 2016. I posted 200 gripes about my breast cancer and then I was done.
On March 13, 2020, I started venting all over again, when another disease (starting with a C) interfered with my life. Only this time, it was affecting more than me.
Coronavirus and Cancer! Both are evil, but neither can totally get me down... if I vent! I hope with Covid, I run out of complaints before 200!